June 7, 2008– Entries from my journals - Being busy doesn’t stop me from thinking of Donnie. At the oddest time a feeling of deep sadness suddenly comes across me and I just want to cry. I wish I had him back so I could tell him how much I really loved him. I didn’t really appreciate how much love he gave me. I’m feeling a little unsettled and unsure without that love backing me up. I never ever thought that I would feel that way, after all I was always the strong, steady one.